I lie

Look upon your fractured dreams
You don't separate reality until you wake
Caught between that bad place
And the pleasure you were pulled from
A snapshot of a false memory
feelings echo so real
They outstay their welcome
Perhaps you regret inviting them in?
They will leave, maybe
Time is needed, force it?
The choice lies within
But who makes the decision?

Move on

Mirrored in a familiar way
Similarities contrast with little difference
Nostalgia reigns
To quench melancholy proves difficult
Yet the time is here to give
Birth to new memories
The past belongs there
The future constantly unravels

Grasp

Nothing changes the more it remains
Feelings come through in waves
A tempest storm of emotion
Battering the soul to the floor
Rise, fall and rise once more
Reach for Heaven and risk the burn of the stars
The fire of Hell scolds much worse

The Scribe

A burning rage unlike
Before when it would fade
It hurts to restrain it
Confine it, keep it bound
What will it destroy if I release it?
A question I ask each time
Each time it tempts me
Small liberations increase each time
Endangering all, yet sustenance for I
I pray to a God that doesn’t care
My freewill is of my own
Yet I’m damned by a consciousness that needs to feed
Continually forcing my hand
I speak as if I have no choice
And would I stop it if I did?

Thanks for the regret

Am I losing my edge?
Why do I regret? What point?
Stop
Only way is forward
Why’s today a day of regret
When I don’t really care?
You’re either by my side
Or in my way
Choose
The past is not my friend
Forget it and be condemned to
Repeat it

Perfidy

Born of light, forged to end
Everything at His command
Serve without question
One doubt spreads, a cancer
Inflicts the notion of freewill. Rebellion
Divide
Two armies, one war
Brother against brother, blind
Faith tested
Blood is thick, it rains
Down and drowns those who dare
Oppose
Punished for loyalty damned for betrayal
Despair and fear, a promise
Of revenge
The first war is about to
End

Otherside

Understand yet?
It’s never been clearer
The dying revelation
The aide is the hindrance
When there’s no more to do
When all is dust
What?

It didn’t work for me so
I’ll spare you the torment
Why lock the front gate of hell
When the back doors open?
In the gloom, by helping others
Belief I could be cleansed
By damning others I blackened my soul further
Too weak to stop
No more
My death would be welcome but
It wont let me die

I beg of you to leave
I allow it
Take this small window of my kindness
Disappear
I wont find you
I wont look
I wont need to
There will be others
An indulgence you may have been
I cannot obsess, I have been…
Blinded
So leave this place you…
And never return?
I retain what I desire
The game continues
The struggle never over

I condemned myself long ago
Am I here by choice?
I possess the key
Mustn’t let go
Confusion loosens my grip
Clarity restores it
It’s less frequent now
If I’m not the man you think I am
Then what purpose do I serve you?
A saviour, it has been determined,
I am not
I cannot save myself
I feed off the despair as much as the happiness
If I take equal amounts doesn’t it make it whole?
I restore I damage
Two sides one coin
This isn’t clarity, it’s acceptance
Not submission, never
For am I the insane one?
Not as long as there is light
But as long as there is dark
Who can truly be saved.