Defeat and Sacrifice

The edge looms nearer
Beyond it the abyss of my soul
The final toll
Of my mind
Obscured visions nothing is clearer
Than the paranoia that plagues me
I am forced to see
To seek a final release
An existence of not caring
No emotion on my wearing
Hart which will blacken
If I’m to find peace.
The sacrifice of my soul
Or at least a part
That all is good
All is kind fades
Hope in despair
Nothing left to tear
Nothing left of me
Nothing but what you see

Your own Personal demon....

They take the form of flesh
My demons haunt me
Once were you, now as them
Laughing as they cut my heart
Devoid of souls all can see

Remorseless they enjoy if at all care
The suffering and pain
Continually sticking pins
Scars not allowed healing
Cruelty and despair thy name

Prolong the agony by creating a fantasy
Leave me broken, toy with the end
Will you release me? Cycle
Am I damned in a nightmare? Eternal
Not allowing my heart to mend

Shall the tables turn where do I stand?
Does revenge fuel me or am I numb
To the emotions I have already wasted on the
Demons that will forever inhabit my mind
And imprison me for their fun

I am not as weak as you would like
That which does not destroy me shall destroy you
Do not waste your suffering, keep it for yourself
For I have Angels on my side
I have the friends I call true.

Regrets?

Walking through the streets so narrow
Hands clasped beneath the stars
In your eyes nothing but love
I didn’t realise how close you were far

We sat by the river
A moment perfect, though it was surreal
We had everything planned, you and me
I wasn’t to know how you would feel

It’s hard to believe you said what you said
When your feelings changed so fast I guess
My opinion of you may have changed
But my feelings aren’t fading

My heart is torn when I look at you
The sound of your voice the laugh that you make
I remember when I made you smile
I wish I could again

I know your love for me is in the past
But when I dream of you it lasts
I wish it would stay there at times
But the pain wakes with me

It’s hard to see you moving on
When for so long I moved with you
I only feel like I’m going back
Though there’s some days I’d love to go back to

Everything went by so fast
There were nights I didn’t want to end
You made me happy, you really did
Thank you

Ands So

Your smile has faded
But the illusion remains
Frozen over that which was once thawed
A long time ago it must seem
Your colours are vibrant but
Which ones are true?
Was I a pawn in your self esteem?
Break my heart it if you must
Please don’t tear it.

The Fall of the Pessimistic

Darkness rises, fuels you
You feed off it
Prevent the consummation of that which is good
Resist
Allow amity to flow through the veins
To define the soul
To be numb is to submit
The darkness will take hold of the weak
Remain strong
Ascend to your right, keep it contained
Be happy, for the first time in your life
It lies within you
Resist

The Cycle

The nemesis of my enemy
Ouroboros for eternity
Understand the meaning of
That which has none
Try to comprehend the
Irrationality of it all
Mistaken for an act so
Pure it is tainted as
The ruined remains
And sanity is lost

Nothing

To feel nothing but know
That you still breathe
Is enough to be alive as long
Your soul courses
Darkness restrained but
Not caged
A fine balance, scales
Tipped slightly to
The other side
We’ll be there soon

New Born

Casing cracks
Wings are flexed
The new light burns
Fresh air intake
Crawl then stand
Look up for the first time
Focus on the new beginning
Walk forward, don’t look back

Me, myself

Understand the meaning
Of that which has none

When the fire has consumed all
And the ashes are all that remains
Stand proud and tall
The burn from the stars
Has proved worthwhile

Dreams

Look upon your fractured dreams
You don’t notice reality until you wake
Caught between that bad place
And the pleasure you are pulled from
A snapshot of a false memory
Feelings echo so real
They outstay their welcome
Perhaps you regret inviting them?
They will leave, maybe
Just give them time, force them
The choice lies within
But who makes the decision?

Ascend

Nothing changes
The more it remains
Feelings come through in waves
A tempest storm of emotion
Battering the soul to the floor
Rise, fall and rise once more
Reach for Heaven and risk the burn of the stars
The fire of Hell scolds much worse.